Wednesday is gone now. I have been working on several abstracts for the coming conferences. I don’t mind giving a talk because I can summarize what I have done so far. It is good to do the presentation occasionally. Now I am updating the manuscript and I am having a hard time doing it because a lot of honest comments make me feel I am stupid. But I should give up my little pride and I should focus on the truth or doing the right thing instead. It was very hard to finish the first draft but I felt good but now I have to face the mistakes I made. But I should do it anyway, I should never give up. Let’s do this. It is already mid-September, I should finish these papers as soon as possible before the experiments start. It seems Sydney is getting out from lockdown in mid-October and I will be ready by the end of October after the 2nd dose of vaccine. So I hope we can start experiment slowly in November.
When I feel hard, I should see far so that I can feel I have not stuck always. I should give the best shot every day before things are getting better. If things are going well, we should prepare for the worst. What I learnt from Adam Smith is the productivity is the king. I should keep accumulating the assets. The assets mean here is not necessarily financial assets. I think now I am finally seeing I am accumulating something after 10 years after my PhD. So I should work on creating knowledge by writing papers and helping others to create knowledge. Some people would say that is for money, I think in business I believe so. But I am a scientist, so my work is to create knowledge. If I create it I should share it by writing the paper. I should try to produce something new, such as data, data analysis, new interpretations. When I was a student, learning new things was fun but instead of learning, we have to create.
I want to read several books again. These books remind me how I am lucky to work as a physicist so I can pursuits what I really am interested in. I am excited when I found something new. I am excited when I found a new logic that explain the phenomena I didn’t understand. Why can I do it? because I am observing something by doing experiments and looking carefully by doing analysis and writing by comparing other papers. I am not a 1st class physicist, I have realized a long time ago. When I talk or listen to the 1st class ones, I feel I am not recognizing what they are seeing, their physical picture. I guess, I tried too hard question for me. To see the physical picture, I should get back to what I understand and think a little bit hard from there. If the problem is too hard, there is no progress even I work hard. So I should work on what I can every day and improve a little bit so in the long term I could accomplish something. I spend 7 and 10 years on these papers I am writing. I feel ashamed I took a long time to finish but it is better than unfinished. I really need to finish them.