Tuesday is gone now. Today is pretty cold. I need to be more careful than usual not to catch a cold. I have revised the presentation file based on the comments from colleagues, I should practice presentations, I will do it tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. Also, I spent some time revising my paper which I would like to finish by the end of October, so I can finish the revision soon to send out the English corrections and further comments. Then, I should finish the paper by submitting it.
Looking back on my blog posts, it seems that there are some readers on my research on the company listed ASX. That makes me happy, honestly, I am writing this on my own I didn’t expect to be read but now I am motivated. I will send out another piece of research tonight. This time will write the report on the Dusk which became public in November 2020. It is a good company, hope they can continue to grow. The share price of Dusk is a reasonable price now but it will continue to grow steadily, I believe. If they can really expand physical stores and online stores, they will do much better in the future. Also, the cost of doing business is improving, that is another good point. I will send out the post tonight.
Today, I heard something I want to try. It is good to write down 10 things you don’t want to do. So you can know yourself better. I thought it is a good idea to do it.
- I don’t want to perform experiment : Maybe this is since when I was a student. I didn’t do the experiment even I am an experimentalist. I like to study, reading books, doing research, but not doing experiment. Now, I understand why? Firstly, it is a hard work and I am afraid to lose. I am afraid of make mistakes while doing experiment. That feeling is still with me even now. Once you get some resutls I am happy, I realized I am learning and having fun. Before that I am afraid of doing all the work goes in vain. Now, I should change it. I should do more experiment to learn more, then I learned I can understand better when I am studying. So do take actions to do the experiments, then I should able to learn more.
- I am afraid of the feedback from collabolator : I guess, I should get over this feeling. I know. This is the reason I should keep writing, sharing with colleague, submiting to the journal. If you don’t understand you cant’ write, if you write, you might make mistakes, if you do make mistakes a lot, people think you are qualified to be a scientist or people think you are just not smart. It seems I am afraid of that. I have to admit it. On the other hand, I have to encourage myself to write so people can find my mistakes ealier. The Ealier I made mistakes the better. So let’s do organize what I should write and write it, and discuss it, so I can learn faster.
- I write slow until I start it : this is related to last answer, I am afraid to write paper because I feel it takes a long time to finish and I feel I am delayed all the time. If I can’t finish? it will delay further?? Why not start now so I can finish earlier even taking a long time to finish. If I don’t do it, there is no paper comes out from me. So only thing I can do is sitting in the chair and just write.
- I am not good at cooking : I can cook. I tried several times. And yes, I am happy when I cook delicius foods. But that is it. Somehow, I am not doing next meals or next foods, sometime I find easier to just buy one. Maybe part fo reasons is I am not interested in eating. I can cook and I like it but I don’t have desire to keep doing it.
- I avoid the analysis, coding, and calculation : This is similar problem with 1., I am afrad of failing it. Especially, physics problems are hard, I don’t really know what to do or where to start, so I should start something from simple. But I feel it is hard to reach a final goal, it could be complicated. I should remeber it is actually fun to reach the final solution. I should not keep avoiding the fail.
- I avoid practice presentation : This is the same, I am afraid of talking in public, if I practice earlier, I can finish earlier but even practice I avoid it because I am afraid of finding out too many mistakes or correction I need to fix.
- I avoid working hard, I am afraid of working too much burn me out. : This is happening from young age somehow I prefer to work every day a bit instaed of workign hard at a short period of time. When I need to practice runing, I should do both to improve my running, instaed I run everyday and do what I can. There is no improvement by doing this.
- I avoid what I should do : Yes, I geuss this answer becomes more in general. I think that is always happening to me. I know what I should do. I should do it what I should do first, then I can do what I want. I remenber by reading “Eat that frog” by Braian Tracy. I should make list A-D by making rank of the importance, I should do it by the rank A. Somehow, I ran away from always form the A. Because the A is usually the most imporatant but also the hardest.
- I can’t focus long time : Maybe because of COVID-19 and working from home, but I think focusing is really important. I can do it sometimes, but not always, why I can focus? Because I am curious or am interested in. I should create the environment which I can focus on what I need to focus.
- I am afraid of facing the problem I actually need to solve : Now by writing this, I realize that actually I am writing the same question and answer. I should do the most important things first but why do I avoid it? Because I feel the hardest and I am afraid to fail. So the conclusion, you should make the first priority to spend time on what you think the most important, maybe you are afraid because you feel that is the hardest thing to do. But, do it anyways.