Facing the reality

Thursday night. The weekend is coming. The time flies so fast. The paper is getting better but I need more time to make this one good. But I don’t have time either. I don’t know I always want to finish them as soon as possible. Today I should have a new referee orientation in American Physical review starting from 12:00 am midnight. I would say this is not a good time for me. And also I don’t know the details of orientation. Anyways, I will take a look first and then think about I keep going.

I don’t know I don’t feel well tonight. But I should not take it out. Let’s focus on what I can do now.

What did I do today and what can I improve? No. I don’t have much to improve in the short term. I just need to struggle to write a better paper. I can take a look at the details of the paper and try to improve it and read more papers and find something helpful on my paper but I think it takes time to improve. Going these through helps me to improve my writing skill in general. So I should not avoid it. Then I realized today, I somehow avoiding facing my paper because I am afraid I fail. But anyway, I should keep doing this. It is not going to be a big step to improve but I hope my writing skill is improving.

Since we are on lockdown, all planned experiments are now on hold. I don’t know when we can do it. But I have to plan it. I like to plan the schedule of experiments because that gives me time to do the preparation and also I can find time to write a paper. I always find time to write a paper because that I want to do. Doing research is fun. I think getting better and better now, maybe after 15 years after I started as an undergraduate student. I should have become much better but unfortunately, the current skill levels are all I got. I will do my best tomorrow as usual.