Confucius said that you would know what to do at 40.

Now, it is Friday night, I am writing this after dinner while drinking a bottle of beer. It has been a very busy week. It is finally over. I have three weeks to go before the end of this year. I submit my evaluation this year. Unfortunately, my achievement is not good this year, on the other hand, I feel great I am making some great contributions to science. I am feeling I am doing my actual science initiated by me.

I will turn 40 years old in 2022. I could not imagine I can be. But the time is slowly but surely moving forward. I am doing what I like so I am lucky enough. But I feel my achievement so far is just tiny. But anyway, what am I or are we supposed to do in our life? Maybe we don’t have a purpose. We just go through our time. At least I can find I can do something in my life for fun.

I still feel I just am getting through every month. My mind is more focused on what I do this month and next month. I do make plans every half year ahead and I like to see what is coming in a half year but largely I am thinking of a month to survive. Maybe this is because of the salary I am getting every month and investing every month. I feel I am getting better every month in the way. But the goal is, like investing, to invest my time and effort in long term. Every day I do is for the future. I can’t change the situation in a few months but over a year I could do some, but over 5 years I can make some impact. So, survive and do my best every month. So I can get 1 year and 5 years easily. Although, I will get older. And, I have still almost 10 months to prepare for the next 10 years.

I can imagine now for the next 5 years are very important to me. I think I will make some foundation that I can stand. I am slowly developing now but that foundation is still just maybe 3 years old or so, however after 5 years, I am sure I can build some good foundation to get through the rest of my life.

Could I do it faster? Maybe, I can do it. I haven’t thought about it. Maybe I should be thinking about it. But I feel I am doing as fast as I can now. Hope I can find a way to reach my goal faster. I just know the way I am sure right now. So I will do accumulate what I can provide and offer to society and do my best to save them for the future me.

Confucius said that you would know what to do at 40. I guess I know what I am doing now.